Not going to post Alot (major tw)

To put a long story short
My mental health has been declining rapidly and I recently found out my grand father is dying
I still am not done grieving the loss of my grandma so I may need some time to let all this settle in and for me to cope with it.
I've been eating less and sleeping more often and lately have been attempting to isolate myself from my friends I meen the only thing I ate today was ice but please do not worry about me I am getting medication for my mental health tomorrow

I just don't know anymore
Nothing is bringing me joy lately not even my friends I just can't do it anymore it just hurts to simply be here on earth it feels like I'm trapped and everytime I share these feelings I get the same response "same"
Or "just like me fr"

I just can't be that upbeat guy for you all right now I'm sorry