oh my gkd

i get so jeslous easily its actually fucking insane like its horrible and it puts me in the worst mood ever then i fuck up everything then its like everybtjng hust fucking crashes down and j cant fix it im so fucking sensjtive its wild
name a irl you dont even talk to? im tucking crying my ehes out. friend i know? im holding nuself ag gunpoint. friend i dont know? my brains are scarretered verywhere. I cant fucking control it why am i like this i wish id just grow some fucking balls and be okay with it eveyrone hss their own life he has hsj own life i just want him to be with me 24/7 i love him and i hate when he talks ahout other leolle no mayheer if i know them or not no matter if he hates them or jot it makes me irritated and for the love of god i try to lregend im okay i dont jnow how to mask it and im an ashole to everykne and nobody knows whats happened becsuse im too fucking scared to say any th inf im just a pussy i cant fucking take it whg am i like this why am i fucking kie this
and the big thing is nobody fuckijg cares and noone realizes im this way and so they call me an assshole and play victim when they dont take a second to realize its not my normal personality and its not sctually me i am jot me im not kyself its jot me