God

God did I hate you, and sometimes I still do when I still get sudden rage, you always managed to enrage me, it was like it was on purpose sometimes, but for the most part you made me cry, I cried for you because I cared about you, you just took and took and took from me and only gave me crumbs in return, your “I love you”s started to feel fake as you yelled at me daily, as you tried isolating me from my friends both online and in person, every goddamn friend I had you would think I was cheating with, but surprise surprise they were only friends and in their own relationships or far from interested, you just kept trying to take and got angry at me for keeping my friends who’ve helped me more than you ever have, you got mad at me for trying to get you to eat every damn day, you got mad at me for being busy at school, you got mad at me for trying to have a damn life that sometimes included me being with others, you had one of my friends caught in your web until they saw who you were, you tried to get my own friends who’ve known me for years to turn against me, well lucky me it backfired, I get I wasn’t all too warm after you kept taking everything from me, a sorry didn’t cut it anymore, you never proved you could change, I never asked you to cut off friends like you did to me, I never spammed you for a response like you did, I never got angry for you being gone like you did, I never tried to force you to stay with me by saying shit like “right before our first anniversary?”, I never did that shit, and I say this now to finally get it all out of my system, I rarely think of you and when I do, I sometimes hate you, but sometimes I laugh instead, because it was just so stupid, never let your loved ones treat you like you’re property, you’re your own person and you have a life too

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