Vent thingy:( [profanity]

I just can't deal w/ shit anymore
It's all just
Everything is fucked
I come from a very catholic household.
My family are very homophobic
I'm gay and athiest
I can't fucking express myself
Sometimes I think of running away or mabye just ending it all.
I'm not usually one to lash out but yesterday I beat the fuck out of a kid for calling me slurs
I'm not like that
I don't know wtf is happening to me but at this point I just wanna kms.
I can't just deal with everything I experience
I understand my parents grew up catholic too and in a quite homophobic time but the fact they can't even accept their own child is kinda fucked.
Nowadays I just feel like a problem
My biggest fear has always been being forgotten or being alone
But ig I just think it's for the best.
I'm not fucking like this but I guess I'm just fucked
Maybe winter holidays will cheer me up a bit if I hang out w/ my mates
But I've been back here for mere days and shit is already tiring me out
Specifically fucking drama
Thought I was done w/ that shit👍
I'm happy it calmed down but I bet anoth thing will pop up
So idk
Bye
Ig