Some song I wrote (Tw: meds n religion)

I wish
I didn't have to take these meds
I wish I wasn't always lying in bed.
And I wish I had a shoulder to lay my little head.
But I'm always complaining, and my moods always down, I've lost all my meds, and I won't make it out
But yet I'm still waiting for something to happen, but it's no use when I'm always down and I

I wish
I could see into the future
I wish I could see if there was anything for me
I'm hoping
But I'm losing my faith
I'm starting to wonder if anything was even there in the first place.

I can't do anything. I can't even put a shirt on without remembering.
Remembering hurts,
Does that make me weak?
I wish I could argue, but sometimes I can't even speak.
I can't get my words out
Does that make me a freak?
I can't even finish a sentence without trying to scream.

God, can you hear me? I don't know if you're even there. But please, put your hand on my shoulder
Because I don't know if you'll be there when I'm older.
And I think that I need you.. but I can't even see you
Am I just praying to the air?
I wish you would fix me
And I wish you made me different
Because I've done so many different things to be comfortable in my body.

But,
I wish it worked.

Lol haha no more sad we gonna go crush nerds in duolingo🔥🔥