That means removal of the n words, your current way of speaking to everyone on here and getting to you, you want to be.

I’ll let you figure it out.
Change everything in the meantime,
and learn more about your outburst.

And that is what you believe, i am not going to treat you like a victim of anything as you are the consequence for beliefs and thinking which stem from a young age out of resentment for your past,
That belief that are powerless to do anything for yourself , where does that come from?