Are you going to give up that easy?… your not a door mat just an easy target for peoples issues… they know you take it and can probably take it again… you let them get to you and… y’a know… you do let them get to you… if you got this far you can go farther I believe that. Nobody ever said the right way was the easy way. You need to fight more (not in a literal sense) and I believe you can. You are good. Just try your beast and if you feel like it’s not good enough then remember that if you get rid of yourself then you could end up losing all of what you could be. Humans are not good animals, and we can change that. Remember.

but i just feel so done with trying as i constantly become the doormat for others around me

(Uhh… sorry I just wrote something over 1000 characters and it didn’t let me send it… just know that I really really really care about you and that everyone who is a dick will be a dick and you can’t change that. I don’t know exactly how you feel but I can kind of be with you… don’t hurt yourself, it will hurt others. You have no idea what more I have said but just know you are worth having a life and I’m sure you will be in better positions in the futer if you try.

well.. yesterday i cooked for everyone but everyone still decides to bicker at me for anything

this morning i got dragged into a roleplay of (the nasty) with ocs.. even though i didnt wish to...

later on i SH.. shortly regretting it all afterwards.

I've been thinking of self death this entire day clouding my every thought.

Owe… we’ll do that if you really feel like it but I will listen to you if that’s what you want. Come on dump in me. I’m willing to listen so you might as well.