blah blah blah btw this isnt xuanyi this is my truesona and he is TOO YOUNG for vyn dont get my words twisted. xuan is 24 and marius is 18 (or however old i am at the time.) the other character in this is the girl i see in my dreams too often who i also hold feelings for and this is ab codependency
this is also not s/a. Feel like i need to clarify that. admittingly i am hypersexual however a lot of it stems from needing to feel something and after the npd enlightenment era i have come to find out that sexual gratification is one way to feed a person with npd (hurray mental illness! for ruining everything) this is not sa this is all a reference to my need to feel validated and my need to feel "something" to be somebody through unhealthy codependency
honesrly there's nothing actually suggestive it's just a leash (especially MY HAND GUYS!!! NOT ANYONE ELSES ITS VERY IMPORTANT THAT ITS MY HANDS im the one hurting myself). nobody is abusing or controlling me or anything like that i willingly put myself where i become desperately codependent
