damned if I do, damned if I don't

I mean, I didn't know I have NPD in 2022, but I think it's funny the differences between my experience with NPD from 2022 vs 2024.... I was a horrible person who saught to hurt other people and i was (rightfully) put in my place (even though it took a long time for anyone to realize I had severe symptoms of NPD that went untreated)

but now some people just??? fucking go "Oh...." WHEN I MENTION I'M RECOVERING?????? like. ok. yeah in my own idealistic world i wouldn't really care to recover but ever since having friends who willingly put up with me, I think I want to recover because that's what friends do (at least, I think so)

it's so fucking weird though you should be happy that I'm trying to be a better person and what the fuck someone's response to me having npd was "oh do you like getting praised?" WHAT.