Since am not allowed to get in relation snips before marriage most of my abounding comes from friends mynproblem is I don't know weather am imagining from my overtaking or they actully don't like me

I’ve had a lot of people abandon me/do something like this. Most of the time it sucks, but one time it caused me to lose my nazi, schizophrenic boyfriend with violent tendencies. Even tho that sounds bad he was a very sweet guy. Still awful, but sweet