I think my cupid killed himself

So uh, a warning shit cuz I don't really know how to use warnings but I know this is not for all ages so yeah ok, warning, some shit n things

When I say that my cupid surely fucking kill himself, I'm being serious, bro I can't feel any fucking love attraction to anyone, I can't feel it. I've also been in quite a few relationships, and most of them broke up because of me because I'm not being able to feel anything at all. I can't feel anything, even if I really like the person, I'm incapable, even though it may seem like I'm showing loving affection in the relationship, all I feel is that what I'm saying are empty words. And I feel selfish and bad about it, because I feel like I'm lying to them and that's being a shitty person.

Btw it is not that I do not feel love in itself, I can feel it, I know I can love, but I cannot towards someone.
My last relationship itself lasted a month, since I tried to think that the problem was not me, but that I did not give it time, and the truth is, haha, I am the problem.

And I'm probably aromantic, although I don't want be it, I long to have a relationship, quite a bit, I don't want to be alone but it's not like I can feel anything and that bothers me a lot.

Another thing that bothers me a lot is the fact that I am asexual in a very big way, and finding a relationship where it does not have a sexual part is haha, not difficult, the following.
When I say that I hate the whole sexual issue, it's that I hate even being naked, it makes me sick, I'm too confined with my body and if I can't stand seeing myself naked anymore, imagine seeing someone else, no thanks.
I can't stand sexual jokes towards me, even if they are jokes about "Oh, I would like to eat every part of your body." Enough, I can't stand it, whether it's a joke or not, not with my body, no thanks.
And it will also be because I am still a minor, although I don't believe it, every sexual topic disgusts me since I can remember it. And I find it difficult to find a relationship where there is no sexual part, and what makes me uncomfortable is when they speak in another tone and aughhgahshh I can't take it anymore

I also don't know how to differentiate between liking someone and liking them as a friend, which caused some of the relationships I had to end up being a misunderstanding.

My only love is now a platonic love with a boy who appeared in my dreams, n yeah, he doesn't exist lmao.

I hope it's just something from my adolescence because I'd rather kill myself than be alone forever.

That's all lmao nya onichan uwu skibidi byee!!!! >w<

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  rsraic8

. Mewwi ”

Naaah, nothing to thank for, tbh I've gone through something similar once and got to tell you that the asexual or arromantic doubts can be very common sometimes when you're building up your identity so I quite feel you dude

4 months ago   Reply

  . Mewwi ”

rsraic8

I hope so, tysm btw 💗

4 months ago   Reply (1)

  +×~Versity~×+

Well, sometimes it could just be because you generally just dont feel any attraction to anyone at this moment in time. A bond and attraction can take a long time to form. But in yoir case it may just be because you havent found the right person for you or who you want to share a personal connection.

4 months ago   Reply

  A.A 🎨

Real
I also have no game

4 months ago   Reply

  Serafiq

you'll be fine, this is extremely common even to me. although I rejected every confession people have made towards me so you can take my words with a slight grain of salt

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