Why am I so self-conscious (rant and may delete later just cause it feels kinda embarrassing ;-;)

I wanna start this by saying that I’m so sorry for this just being out of the blue or this rant being extremely long but if you took time out of your day/night to read this thank you. Okie so getting onto it, I’m not really sure where to start. So like I feel kinda self conscious mainly by showing myself. I’ve been wanting to change my pfp on this app since I came back. Don’t get me wrong I love having matching pfps with What the Cringe but the way I drew myself in that pic, it just reminds me of a time in my life I’m trying to move past. And normally right off the bat I would change my pfp to a photo that I use for all my other social medias (which right now is a cool pic from my racing Vanellope cosplay) but then I realized that would show my face. Even though it doesn’t show too much of my face I still for some reason feel self conscious about it. I could also do a pic of one of my other drawings but I don’t really feel like any of them fit it well. I was also going to do a post explaining the making and the inspiration of “bloody sno” (especially since I’ve had a lot of people said it seemed like they’ve heard it before) but the inspiration for the look of Sno was from a project for one of my theater classes that I still have photos of but again, that would be showing myself. It’s not even that I think I’m ugly or anything like that I just feel like I’m definitely not what people expect (if that makes any sense) it’s just so hard to explain. I’ve also been kinda telling myself that I’m just overthinking it, like nobody is really gonna notice or really care about it the way I do but there’s still just that annoying overthinking that I can’t get over. It could also be that I had been on this app so long not showing myself and just my drawings that I kinda just found a safe way for people to see my talent and personality over my actual self. It even got to the point that I took off my insta account from my bio just because I’m so nervous about what people think of me. Anyways thanks for coming to my insecure TedTalk, I hope you have a blessed rest of your day/night.

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