it hurts (big angry rant/vent)

In late 6th grade there was a new girl that joined our class. She had split dyed hair and had a, cutetsy alternate fashion style. I thought she was really cool back then

It was lunch time and she was sitting in the cafeteria by herself eating. I saw this as an opportunity and be the first person to become friends with them. So I came up and sat in front of her and complimented her demon slayer pencil case, she said thanks.
Later on she met my other friend and we all became friends. She found out that I knew deltrarune/undertale and so we both geeked out about it through lunch.
I loved hanging out with her, when she wasn't there I would always ask where she was. She was into art and had the same nerdy interests as I did, but she also went through religion struggles, she was the only one who understood me and who could talk to me about my interests
Later on before school ended, she and my other friend got into a huge argument, they both didn't want to tell me what happened
Then, she started becoming distant. I noticed and made sure to always sit with her and ask her if she was ok. She would just nod and mumble yeah
But the more I tried to talk to her, the more she strayed away from me. She started hanging out and talking with other people and not talk to me at all. It hurts seeing them walk down that hallway laughing, I wish I was there.
I felt like I was in the conflict even though I wasnt there.
Just as I had someone relatable to talk to they were stripped away from me
It felt exhausting talking to her from them, it was clear she wanted nothing to do with me. Our bare interactions felt forced
One day I decided to stop. I realized that maybe I should let go of her and let her stray away from me. It felt like I held onto her by a rope clinging onto dear life begging to let her stay. I had to let go, I had to .
So I did, I stopped talking to her, even though I wanted to so badly
School ended, summer came and went and 7th grade started
I would see her hanging out with all these cool kids like her and that was the only time she was genuinely happy, and not miserable like hanging with me.
It hurts
I had to sit in front of her and her friend while they giggled and chatted to each other. I wanted her to just go away. I hated hearing their voices I hated her face, her hair her stupid clothes I was angry I was upset I was hurt why did u stop talking to me? I wasn't involved, what did I do? Pls come back, don't leave me pls but I also I hate you go away.
Go away
Everyone suddenly liked her, even my class partner liked her, she was so quirky and funny I wish I could drown out her voice. I wish she could just disappear and no one would miss her. I hated her so much, but I loved you so much
It hurts

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  SammyIsCool

That's so sad

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