Idk, that's one thing about killing myself I worry about. I want to die, but I also care about myself too much, so dying in a planned position is important. But I don't know how my body will actually react and that worries me, i wish i was stupid and couldn't think so that I don't have to make hard choices
Forensics was the best thing I could take as an artist, and the worst thing as a suicidal person. So gross thinking that'll happen to my body. I worry about livor mortis a lot more than the other ones