I hate it. (Go away if u don't wanna here my vent)

I hate it when my friends say I'm neing rude when they arebthe one's being rude to me. I try to make them laugh but they go on and say smth like "not funny" or give me a dirty look. And when they are saying I'm being rude bc I was standing up for my other freind they were being mean to. I can't say it to them or they will go off and cry aboit it. I can't say this to any of my friends. I send them an edit and they say "ofc it's depressing" 1. What type of friends are you uf you don't even care. 2. I probably have sent them silly or happy edits before that "depressing" edit and they completely ignore it.
I hate it when my mom blames every thing on period . All these sad emotions will end soon she says. I HATE IT. I hate how I have to keep everything inside of me bc no will acc care. They will only notice this when my fake smile turns into crying down on the floor. Then they care. Then I say I'm fine! they say OK! Cant they realise that I'm not OK!? No one asks me how I am. No one notices anything. And after years of been treated this way. It's ked to panic attacks. Late at night me silently crying on the floor. Can't breathing. No. One. Notices. They really only notice this when my sadness gets into anger. And now I'm bad. I. HATE IT. My friends don't care, some of them do.. and when I say they have A lovely long text message. BUT then they don't care they talk about something else.. they complain and complain if I act sad. WHAT TF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!!?? Lie to you? Fake smile? Poft I already do it anyway.. I HATE IT when ppl assume things about me. They say "yeah yeah lol there not acc deppresed". . . No one acc cares about me. You say something to me that offends me now I'm insecure. You wanna know why I barely talk? bc ppl always talk over me. There no use
No one cares.
NO ONE

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