oh my god why do i always have to ruin my fucking friendships

why the fuck can't i sit and realise not everyone will acknowledge me at once and im just a person
im not even that important
yet i feel like i should be noticed
it feels like everyone has forgotten about me
even if they have its my own fault
i did this to myself
who wants to hang out with a stupid bipolar alcoholic
its like i have separation anxiety or something
i think i dont do enough and put in enough effort when i see my friends have fun without me
but i need to realise they have their own lives too and im just someone on the internet
they can't manipulate their schedules just to make me, an irrelevant person, feel worth something
i should just distance myself from everybody
i can't maintain my own friendships

if i can't even be useful why am i still alive
why wait when the knives are downstairs

i do not matter and im now aware of it
my eyes are opened now
goodbye

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