i get it im childish

my friend constantly makes me do things i dont want to do and forces me into them and when i refuse she complains tells me to fuck off and calls me childish and annoying
she also derails things and tries to make things i do about her and when im in a group conversation with other friends she cuts me off and when i tell her to stop she gets mad at me and says im childish again
and also guilt trips me and calls me fucking fat and pale and says i never go outside and rot away in my room when i tell her that i dont want any plans
today i even told her about how bad my family and home problems have been lately and that i nearly ended it all last night and she still does this to me
shes my only close friend though and im around her all the time

its like nobody in my life thinks i matter and im slowly drifting away from all my friends even my online ones
i dont think the gc likes me anymore
maybe i just overthink way too much but

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