Hei, no need to be sorry it's fine trust me. Idk what you're going through and I know this is pretty basic advise but things will more than likely become better for you. It may not be easy at all trust me when I say this, but once the time is right you will forget what it feels like to fell hurt and sad. You will find the happiness and peace and comfort you need. You'll find the right people, in the right place, at the right time.