Little vent ig

I've been trying to get better at other things such as guitar because my brother Is always better at me in everything.

I like to sing but sometimes I don't, knowing I have a lisp and probably sound weird to other people

I cannot stop thinking about suicide for shit. My brother has a BB gun I really want to use while everyone is sleeping but I know I can't leave my mom like that + my friend(especially kylee) and idk if a BB gun will really do anything or even kill me. I want a quick death, not a painful one

A kinda good thing is that I stopped cutting but I'll only stop for 2 months probably since I'm seeing my brother this month then my mom another (my brother knows I cut myself and will tell my dad + grandpa even though he is bring me to the edge of cutting down my whole arm)

I think I'm becoming to tired to do anything such as talking with friends and playing games. The only thing I've been doing is playing vrchat sometimes or playing the guitar

I haven't been eating more lately too. The only thing I've been doing is drinking sprite or eating lunchables, nothing else really

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