Hi guys :33 (long description)

I'm soso so so sorry about the last post (whoever had witnessed it....) it's now unlisted.
I'm so sorry, I was scared and angry and hurt. It's finally the day of my mother's birthday, however I'm not planning to do what I mentioned previously. There's a couple of reasons as to why, but the two main reasons are;

1~As I was trying to figure out what exactly I should do, I had decided to run away. But it was until I thought about all the advantages and disadvantages, there was a higher count of disadvantages. I am currently in another country (for holidays) and it isn't exactly the most safest place. I also barely even know my way around so I'd just most likely get lost, then kidnapped and goodness knows what would  happen afterwards. And even if I do manage to survive somehow and not get lost, and I get a job, I'm not gonna be able to make enough money because the pay in this country (for most jobs) are pretty low, and because I'm a girl/female, people won't take me seriously and they most likely will not let me work for them. So... I practically have a very low survival chance. 

2~After deciding not to run away or take my life (which in both scenarios, I would've most likely ended up with the same fate) I made a birthday card for my mama an hour or two before midnight. It was a pretty simple but cute little gift I think, I hadn't actually gotten her anything because I wasn't expecting to actually still be here :') It was the least I could do.
(At the end of this post, I have linked photos of the card if you're interested!!)
Back to the actual story.... After midnight, around 1am(yes, I don't sleep cause I'm a vampire 😈) I heard my cousins, my aunties, and uncles all saying happybirthday to my mama. I went out side to see and I saw them all so happy. This  made me feel so guilty about thinking to ykyk to myself. I then went to give her my card and I wasn't expecting too much reaction but surprisingly.... She actually (I think genuinely) smiled! She read it and thanked me before hugging me?! Im sorry but like... This is just big to me. She doesn't hug me, ever. Only on rare occasions. I felt so confused yet so loved. I felt conflicted because I couldn't tell if the hug and reaction was all genuine or if it was all just an act in front of everyone else. Either way, I just want to stay here for longer. I don't want to leave this happy moment. I can't destroy it for everyone else.

ANYWAYS... that was kinda depressing uhm. ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

The following links are photos of the card I had made. (I saw this idea somewhere on tiktok before but it didn't come with a tutorial and I had also lost that video so uh yeah.. I kinda just had to figure it out myself, made a few mistakes but got it in the end :33👇👇)

https://ibb.co/WpGHTqZg

https://ibb.co/xtz75RqZ

(And yeah, my Mama's pretty young :33)

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