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why am i so scared of that happening
when you said it will never ever happen
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i miss that version of you
before anything happened
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why?
why haven’t you returned?
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i’m scared of myself
that could happen at any time
that promise would get broken
and i have no idea when it could happen
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i wish i had apologized earlier
now i cant
he left
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i’m probably not gonna have enough motivation to finish that
i keep making other projects
why do i like working on more than 5 things at the same time?
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that could come back
at any time
i hate that side of me
she doesn’t like it either
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i try to ignore it
but it will still linger
i don’t want to give in
she probably wouldn’t like it
it would probably cause another 10/13/24
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that’s all i guess