That's what I ment by i cant help it

jesus christ, no fucking wonder your like this

Yes

I've been sexualised all my life ever since I was really young (the grooming was a really big problem) and when I was finally around 11 or 12 I was told to put myself out there and hevaly sexualise myself for love and attention by some older women I met online (witch made the grooming worce) and thay sent me alot of horrible stuff involving women getting raped and saying that it will happen to me and to "enjoy it" and "let it happen" that stuff traumatised me

did i ask too much?