Mental health is important by the way

I've been laughed at my entire life for being different and weird. Even by my family.
I was never taken seriously ever.
I was emotionally neglected and yelled at constantly.
And do people not understand what can be the results of this????
I had OBVIOUS signs of PTSD, depression, and anxiety at the age of 9
And NO ONE took me seriously
I would get yelled at and laughed at constantly for being scared of everything.
For crying when my dad would pull off into a steep ditch.
I even got told by my mom that she never took my mental health seriously.
They only started caring once faking it stopped working and it was more obvious.
And currently I still get in trouble for showing signs of my issues.

I literally just find it so hard to get out of bed. and it's so embarrassing how disgusting my room and I am.
I barely eat anymore because my mom would tell me I ate too much.
When I was 10 I used to literally cover my mirror in my room because of how much I hate myself
People at school are horrible to me.
I'm not able to hold friendships because of the way I am. I always ruin them.
I get used constantly because of how forgiving I am
Being online is the only escape I have.

The emotional neglect and yelling is the reason I'm so scared of talking to people.
I'm scared I'll be rejected and laughed at.
I do genuinely want to be ok and be normal I want to be useful and feel deserving of love But I know that's never gonna happen.

im sorry for the random vent.
I just needed to get it out because if I keep pretending any longer I'm not going to make it to 2026

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  🍯Thebeezkneez🐝

Hey bud listen
You got this alright? I feel you completely. My family never takes any of my issues seriously and mock me instead. I know it's hard
I've been close to making many life threatening mistakes, but I always keep going. You know why? Because people care about me
People care about YOU dude
I know we just recently started talking again but I consider you one of my best friends ever
If anything happened to you many would be devastated
Just keep doing your best to stay alive and well. It may seem like things will never get better, but they will. I got your back and will help you the best I can. Need to get something off your chest? I'm here! Need a distraction? I can provide that too.
You're doing great with dealing with your struggles, keep it up 🙏

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  A.A 🎨

im seriously so sorry this is happening to you :(
i just want it to be known to you that there are people out there who do genuinely love you and care about you
hang in there friend, were here for you

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