Oh I'm so sorry 😔
I don't know how to comfort, but I hope u get better!!
Also, u can vent here freely! If you're scared of ruining ur happy personality, u can make a new account, unlist every post, and just write ur feelings in the desc! That's what I seen some ppl do, (except they don't unlist it for some reason) which I think they do it so ppl dont know who they are.