yawn (vent)

I don’t really like venting on apps likes these but since no one I know irl can see this I feel find posting it, this is mostly for me to journal, not for you the reader to comfort me about.

Lately school, sports, and other extracurriculars have been kicking my ass with motivation with my art, my hobbies, and sadly my will to live. I’ve been doing sooo porky because there’s so much on my plate, my parents tell me they’re disappointed bc I can do ‘so much better’ and that I’ve been choosing the ‘easy’ way.

Well I kinda bawled my eyes out after that and my dad (step father) came to check in on me, I’m a very open person with my parents (I luckily have the freedom to talk to them abt most things!) and I was able to explain to him that was I wasn’t in a good headspace and I needed to quit things that were only making me feel worse.

I spoke with my mother and him and the three of us decided tomorrow I will be dropping two ‘upper’ classes and my sports for the sake of my mental health, at the price of me seeing an attitude change.

That’s it really, I just still struggle with the fact that I’m giving up I guess. I wouldn’t have seen myself like these years ago, but all my energy to keep being the best is gone.

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