I have a question

I have been keeping this locked up inside me for a while and denying it I don’t want to say I have depression but I don’t want to seem like an attention seeker or cause trouble or grief to my family so I just need some answers. Lately I have been locking myself in my room and ignoring my friends calls I never hang out with my family anymore and I’ve abandoned my online friends. Ever since middle school everything has been falling apart and I feel like my best friend ever is moving on without me. I have been giving up my hobbies and spending all my time on YouTube and pretending my pillow is my friend. I’ve been lonely and I can’t sleep I always go to bed around three and cuddle my pillows like another human being and give them characteristics. I haven’t slept in 3 days and have been having a lot of mood swings and to be honest I am feeling insecure about my body and think that I’m ugly and fat. I hate talking about this but it’s been building up inside me for years ever since I was raped as a child and I just need to know- what am I supposed to do

  M@ranarasAuce\_^_^_/

The thing is all of my friends are sad too and I feel like if I tell them they’ll just think I’m an edgy teen copying them or something so I don’t know what else to do this is my last resort

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