Bro i love your art but you should probably take a break. Telling someone you wanna die as like a present comes off really guilt trippy and like,, you need to take a second to breathe. Drawing as a vent can help but then like,, redirecting at someone?? I think maybe you should just take a sec to chill. None of this is in a negative way btw, I'm concerned for you and you may look back on these posts some day like,"yikes!" Because I know I have done this too and I mass deleted all that bc it was so embarrassing of me lmao. I hope that whatever your going through lightens up, even if by a lil bit.