best wishes bro,, hope you can now get the help you need but ik hosptals are the worst,,
like merakii said, pls take it piece by piece to get better and if you can, try not to get frustrated and rush yourself.
good luck bro!!! if u need someone not close to the situation to vent to i think(???) you have my discord,, but otherwise we'll try to help bes we can
much love /p