I did original love you very much and wanted a romantic relationship with you. But I thought we were too far away and I needed a boyfriend were I was. Especially what I went through last year. Not your fault my mum's fault. She is very abusive and I was scared to tell incase someone found her account on Tik tok and she whould be puzzled and abuse me. The abuse was so hardcore that is August I was crying with 2 weeks bad sleep and abused and was texting my dad that I'm going to drown myself and in September I did selfharm. I'm sorry I didn't tell you anything of this. Than again I didn't Evan tell my friends I've none for a long time eather.