Hold on lots of people want to be there for you if you wanna talk some where more privately we can and I know you might not want to be comforted but I know having someone to listen to all this right now can help I promise. I’ve gone through stuff like this and even if I didn’t want someone’s comfort it was still helpful just to talk
My socials are in my bio but if you don’t have any of those I can give you my number if you wanna just talk