Umm...I think these qualities do not suit a person of his age 13 years...It sounds scary like you're mentally ill.???
But okay that might be it there might be a lot of things like that but I don't feel weird about it because I watch anime and such but....
To be a real, living person who is a human being and...how should I explain...I like your qualities but I don't like this one at all
I think you can meditate on your bed...put on a sound you like like birds or steam and close your eyes and calm down.👍🏻