i dont want to live
B̵̶̶̧̢̡̨̨̢̢͇̞̪͚͚͇͉̗̒̈́ͯͯ͑̀͘͘͟͜͝͡r̡̠̦̬ͨͪͪ̌ͣͯ̾͛̿ͣ͗̃̊͗͘͜͢͟͡ų̸̴̡̡̡̡̧̂ͥ̌̐͑ͦ̐͆ͫ̈́̾̎́͡͏̸̢҉̡̀͟͡ḧ̷̸̵̢̧̧̡̛̖̹̯͚ͪ̀́̕͢͝͝ͅ
