Well honestly (not to be mean)
I think that you are smart I’m glad you like science.(I love science as well, my Aunt works for JPL. I tend to lean to the engineering and astronomy side of it though, I like chemistry too)
I think that based on your description you feel sorry for yourself some times (not to judge) I also think that you may not have all of the listed phobias. (Not to be mean this is just my Hypothesis, I am fairly well at reading people’s emotions. Not to say I’m correct, I’m just saying telling my hypothisis. You did say that you wanted me to be honest. I am trying to be nice 😊😊😊