This is ninja mother she is 10 years old and she feels for you and she is crying that she not able to help you. Please don’t harm your self. There is people who you can see and talk to to get through what your going through. She is super worried about you and she doesn’t know you and she doesn’t want you to hurt yourself. I’m sorry for what your going through but it will get better. It may not seem like it but it does get better!