I'm not in a horrible position, I would never attempt suicide again (for now), but it's a thought that lingers in my mind. When I am mildly inconvenienced, I want to kill myself just to prove a point.

My life is going great, I have a career path almost ready and set up, and I still think what would happen if I died today, or tomorrow.

when people ask me why i'm failing I tell them I don't care about my grades. It's partially true, but the main reason is I never saw an actual future for myself. I tell my friends i'm not actively suicidal. It doesn't mean I don't want to kill myself anymore. I think about it, but I don't have to kill myself. Everyday, i think about it, but my friend is already experiencing grief. My empathy expands enough that I won't kill myself

I hate the education system, i hate the gifted and talented label, i hate not being able to learn

not to bring up "i'm technically in special education" but i choose to be in AP because it was the only one that fit my standards somewhat. I need to be challanged, debated on
All those other types of classes, AP was the only one that felt challenging enough

People call me selfless and nice and it disgusts me, i'm not any of those things. I don't know. Sometimes it really is just out of goodwill, but often i do kind things if it benefits me long term.

their dynamic is a villainess and her henchmen and they're violently in love with each other but they're oblivious

yandere au my beloved, i love drawing their expressions often

i am a straight man who can't catch a break from OTHER MEN!

To clarify. Again. Before people hop on me for being a volcel; i'm only labeling myself because i am voluntarily celibate . I do not hate or despise women, i just dont do sex because the majority that want to have relations with me are men.

gotta do this shit again tmr fml

thx

me when i kin kanade otonokoji and mikan

2022: "vyn richter kinnies pls dm"

vyn kinnies please stay far from me

i was upset over someone kinning vyn richter im not ok

it was ibukan if it mattered

thanking my weird ex who matched minecraft skins with me and I was mikan because now i kin mikan and i absolutely hate my ex

Queer platonic relationships exists hope this helps lil bro

Again.. i excell at essays and research documents but I'm not much of a creative writer person...

not u fr where are ur colors 🤨