I also get other's a hard time too...

I just don't feel like dealing with this anymore...

I cry silly...bite my hand laugh to get the anger out of my system but it still won't work...

I try not to let this anger and hate take over but when I'm pissed as hell I lose it.

I can't take it I really can't...I'm sick..and tired of this bullshit.

I'm tired,frustrated,will not show a stupid smile on my face, I try my best to brighten up my soul but bloody war of my family goes on contiuosly...

Until nothing will heal my heart to get better...no.

My days might get worse...worse...much worse...

THEIR GONNA GET WORSE

I try not to be angry...but my rough days still continue non-stop...nothing's not gonna get better their gonna get worse no matter what...

I HATE THE PARTS OF MYSELF.

I'm not trying to be street smart or being right all the time...GRRR..MAYBE I AM AN UNGRATEFUL JERK.

Why can't I be perfect? What is wrong with me? Why am I born? What purpose should I be born? I give nothing but a hard time.

Instead of talking back and acting like an ungrateful rat.

I wish I was perfect...

Am I bring too hard on my mom and grandma...? Am I just a fucking little brat...?

They wont let me talk...can't have a chance one day won't be trusted no more...

I can't act right cus they make me angry I can't act nice cus they put their mouth on me...

Is there something wrong with me? Yes there's something wrong with me HA!

I hate my family and myself.