I may not know you very well, but its not ur fault. You have every right to be upset about all of these people and I dont blame you
im always open to talk to anyone who feels upset so know im here. dont hate yourself. Maybe your friends are going through things and need time. NEVER blame yourself about things like this
please hang in there I believe in you. hurting yourself isnt worth it, no matter how much you would want to do it
gl <3 /p