i’m so sorry- i haven’t been paying attention to you and a lot is happening in my life right now- i know it’s not an excuse to like- barely talk to you- i’m not trying to blatantly ignore you i’m just not paying attention and so much is happening in so little time that i honestly don’t want to talk. it’s nothing against you at all i’m just having a shot time getting over myself and all this shit and it’s hurting you. and i promise im gonna start working on that because i don’t want to hurt you- and this is kind of a ramble and yeah-

-he slid another finger in, slowly jerking himself off- “if it’s okay with you- i’d really alike to put it in-“ -he sounded slightly desperate-

-he let out a small sigh, satisfied, moving his finger around to loosen you up a bit- “sorry-“

-he moved and left a line of kisses along his back before lubing his fingers up with spit, sliding one in- “this should only take a few minutes…you’re a lot bigger than me so-“‘-he sounded embarrassed-

-he looked at you and gave you a smile, moving over, giving you a quick kiss- “can you lay on your stomach for me?” -he gave you the It’s okay if you don’t want to look

-he raised an eyebrow and smiled- “alright then” -he patted the bed-

-he laughed to himself, slipping it on- “have you don’t this before?” -he looked up at you-

-he looks at it, and sits on his knees, opening it with a quick tear using his teeth, and looked at you- “you want me to- to..to top?”

-he sat up, watching you- “you normally this close with your interns?” -he teased you, smiling a bit-

-he glared up at you- “not normally actually-“ -he let out a huff of air, watching you-

-he shuttered, letting out a small moan, his face turned pink-

-he looked at you, and shook his head- “not at all..” -he ran a hand through his hair letting out a shaky breath-

-he leaned towards…he was nervous..he pulled away and looked at you…he’s never bottomed before- he assumed he would be anyways…he shivered a bit at the thought-

-he flinched, letting out a breathy sigh as he kissed you back-

-he looked up at you, and shuttered a bit- “that’s not..that’s not always a bad thing..” -he turned his head, embarrassed-

-he looked up at you, letting you, his hands trembling-

-his face went red and he kinda like- tucked his arms in, his hands covering his face- “i- i.. well-“ -he laughed- “i- hHhHh” -he tended up, embarrassed, looking up at you through his fingers-

imma just say- i’m in Tennessee and it’s not the place to be-

-he looked at you, his face was slightly red, he made eye contact but looked down right after-

-his face went red and he turned his head, embarrassed- “i- ok-“ -he let out a small nervous laugh-