if you are feeling like this you might wanna stop and think for a second that there are others out there that wish they had a life like yours, because they have no food or shelter. that’ll make you feel a bit better. it could always be worse.
you are 9 years old, it’s easy to assume your parents don’t love you if they refuse to do something for you or if they punish you for something you might’ve done. Either that or your parents are actually exactly what you say they are but i’m skeptical of it.