if i had to pick out every character I kin that is closest to me without having to go "except..." or "only this part" or just in general not EXACTLY like me
luka alien stage, akane TBHK, secretive plotter ORV
when i found out i never really had romantic attraction in the first place it was like a bombshell because i fantasized about romance a lot but hearing that i myself easnt much or a romantic for people was so appalling and i felt terrible realizing i dated my exes while being aro
+ i'm lithro/aro i think i just wanted stability idk, i don't wanna say i didn't ever love my exes because at the time i did like them in some sort of way but i'm realizing romantic attraction is NOT the biggest part of it and thats why a good portion of my exes call me boring, loveless, etc etc I DIDNT KNOW.....
honestly i think deep down inside i always seen vyn more femininely. after i hc her as transfem i have never felt happier? idk. i have like logs of me telling my friends i really wanted to use she/her on vyn