"Your teacher talked really well about you and your work in her cyber security class, we think it's a good opportunity if you took this 15k scholarship... with the requirement that you join the airforce" ..... THEY CALLED MY PARENTS ABOUT THIS TOO TRIYNG TO GET THEM TO CONVINCE ME TO JOIN THE AIRFORXE

after freshman year i didnt really wanna be in the airforce anymore (general distain for the US army) but the airforced tried to recruit me twice junior-senior year😭😭😭i was pulled out of my calc class and one of the higher ups asked if i really didnt wanna join the airforce PLEAAASE

funniest thing is in elementary i wanted to be in the airforce. and then i was doing a tour for what highschools i could go to, the highschool i went to mentioned that they worked with the military in the cyber security department so i studied tech/comouters.THEN MY SENIOR YEAR THEY TOOK CYBER SECURITY AWAY

okay and cyber security isn't even bad. but. ...... not my passion. and whatever i guess that's a good thing but ugh I think about what could've been....

when I get my hands on the little shit that decided he wanted to be in cyber security, fuck you, FUCK 😡😡😡😡😡YOU CHOSETO BE IN CYBER SECURITY BECAUSE OF THE MILITARY abd the airforce tried to recruit you twice and I said no hecause I DONT WANNA BE IN THE MILITARY 😡whatever. i guess cyber security makes lots of money and I have a guaranteed job but still. 😡

TOT fandom i see them in their early twenties and i'm here in college waiting for uni transfer Fuck

fucking nerd why didnt you go into athletics YOU DOOMED ME FUCK

"i'm turning 20 next year, we get to drink legally soon" STOPPPP DONT REMIND ME!!!

lord we all old wipes sweat off my forehead why am i having so much fun with a tot school event WHILE STILL IN EDUCATION IM LIVING IT IRL RN and i choose to play stupid GAMES ABOUT GOING TO SCHOOL FAAACK

went out with friends to get boba one time but i was shaking badly and going through it so i texted through my notes app and we had a good laugh about it because i was texting so slow and one of them mentioned that i had the option to literally erase my words but i'm still speechless

in before anyone says anything yes this is based off of my own symptoms

xuan is *definitely* capable of speaking but often freezes up in every day situations. public humiliation is not one of those situations, he'll speak vocally if it's under what most people deem "nerve wracking."

public speeches, interviews, and presentations, he can speak vocally. everyday interaction is a little bit more of a "hassle"

his selective mutism is a symptom of ptsd, but he'll try to use any form of writing if he can't convey complex thoughts without them (though, sometimes he'll freeze up while writing. Text document is his preferred method to speak.)

i thought about making him more like a delinquent, based on my junior high self (oops.) But scrapped the idea in favor for a more "self indulgent" version of myself (in which i never persued technology and really did stick to drawing; fashion design.)

he gets fidgety and nervous when you talk to him but he's an extrovert, really, you gotta believe him

NXX: he's right behind us, isn't he...
Rosa: *nods

slow camera turn to xuan, hiding behind a wall, staring at them

this xuan is very kylar what a loser

xuan in his head and his ships are xuanyi, artemrosa, and mariluke and he nods to himself he is het-fudanshi-ing out omg

i use thaz song to quote xuan a lot ngl, it's kinda his song

if xuan was a ML; this is xuanrosa. otherwise, xuanyi and xuan stalks rosa because his ship (artemrosa) needs to bloom