Rememberinf what possessed me fuckkkk. FUUFFUUCKCKCK i need to be more insane this year

Remembering the way i shaded vyn's hair a year ago god i was insane And i liked it Fuuuck. God i love her and her sick mind I gotta be insane like that again sometime soon..

this is more "traits i *like* because I'm more attracted to" but design/personal preference....

- thick eyebrows
- Sharp narrow eyes, with eyebags and eyelashes
- bows and ruffles, frilly things
- crop tops
- neck muscles, muscles in general. Especially torso + arms
- glasses (obviously)
- blood... teeth, mouths with special features
- vyn's hair specifically.
- mecha
- clothing wrinkles
- balanced asymmetrical designs
- anything warm colored...

i am incredibly sadistic in truth sorry. the cycle of wanting to get better and being in recovery and then getting worse

this and medical malpractice/doctors in general I am afraid of doctors but I love doctors too....

There are characters made specifically for me And nobody will get it. Hmph. I like characters who

- wear glasses, have silver hair, intelligent/elegant, in a position of power, emotionally constipated, mysterious

- are a friend from childhood who's brunette, yandere, horribly traumatized, puppy-like

- refuses to acknowledge their feelings and pretend to be tough, with a crazed look in their eyes and in truth are incredibly dense but sentient enough to have feelings hurt

Anytime I'll make more concepts but on csp 😛

debut as a vtuber and credit me as a ママjk

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I HATE MY STUPID LIFE

people telling me that i'm a liar and i'm not developing games which is true but for reasons nobody actually thinks of 😂this is hell

i say i dont use fire alpaca anymore but that is a lie tbh I did use it a while ago just never finished anything cus i dont finish art at all 😛 i'll open it for the memories 💙

IT WAS MY FIRST REAL ART PROGRAM 🥹 I don't use it anymore but it has a special place in my heart

"your sin is pride and envy" my gluttony sickens people Malatang I Miss you like a desperate ex....

Mala tang hot pot got me blushing and shit... it's true what they say, aromantic people just love food

My fatass thinking about food still fuuuuck

I thought about revisiting the style but TT.... this era is too special.... and I have no ocs to do this for since my aesthetic changed 🥲 Nor do I plan to unarchive my old art at all, it's so embarrassing and old TT it's charming to me but imin the way that you can admire your younger self's efforts, not in a "this is good" way.... 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 I could think of so many ways to optimize my art back then but I was 12 oh well

This was a big sentiment some people had when they recieved critiques from me/asked for lessons from me. They made a huge note about how "kind" my critique was and that I didn't immediately say their art was "bad." People are more than quick to put others down to feel better about their own art haha, and they actually don't know how to critique people.

Avoid tone tags in my page, I don't like them as much

if you shade in purple and don't Shade in this specific way you will burn in hell and you actually make ai Art that's the rules everyone else said so.... If you don't sketch and then do line art you are a witch and we will burn you at the STAKE!

Ah... back when I was just a boy using a trackpad + mouse to draw and only had access to firealpaca...