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Hey. My name was Benny.
I was here from 2018, to 2025.
I had a great time here and was a friend to many.
I hope you guys don't miss me too much.
Loved you all, cya!
If my dad came back my life would turn upside down
My life has changed a lot.
It changed when my uncle died, it changed when my aunt got cancer, it changed when I got a stepdad, it changed when my dad got arrested, it changed when I moved to England from N.I., it changed when I was diagnosed with ADHD, it changed when I got diagnosed with cardiac syncope
And change is one of my biggest fears
I reallly can't handle change
But sometimes change is good
Even if you just saw her once, it could be positive, even if just briefly
My dad was arrested for beating me and trying to kill me
I still talked to him
I think it's good to talk to people you have feelings against
I told my dad I was pissed at him and he understood why
Maybe your ma would understand too..
I've tried writing stuff down. It's what the therapist which didn't do fuckall for me told me to.
It just made everything make me want to cry and hurt myself a lot more.
I like bottling everything up and it actually helps me, it makes me feel strong.
I hate feeling weak. It makes me want to try to kill myself again.
Thanks for trying to help though.