Trauma can effect everyone in different ways. Aswell as in different times. Considering the fact that yk you have been through some stuff to do with knives. It could have been a case of PTSD, but the thing i want to remind you of is that im always here to talk to if anything happens and i will be here to give advice.
Ok thats good (btw i cant tell if your being serious or if your being sarcastic. I have a lot of difficulty identifying those kinds of things so if you are actually ok that is good to hear but if you are not is there anything i can do to help?)