This is it Roman the rest of Zimicks letter

Get a new hobby, get a job, make a cake. Honey, I still love you, but I also hate that little kid you used to be. I love you like a friend, don't take this the wrong way. And I love you enough to tell you what your doing needs to change. Emotions stick around for longer than we'd like, and I know how it feels to just want to end it all. But death hurts, nobody knows what its like on the other side. What if it's worse? Do you really want to find out? Because i know deep down Roman you like living. You like the sun, you like the sky, you like art! And you're great at it! You can do so much with yourself you don't even know it yet. And hey, if you don't believe me thats fine. But I'm just a girl who used to love you. A girl who used to love every single fiber of your being. So don't believe me. But don't hurt yourself either.

Emotions pulled on emotions that spilled out of me like an over filled juice glass. Void my best friend on there tried to consult me. And according to her words I was absolutely distort for three days you didn't come online. I didn't even eat if I didn't see you! But I'm changed now, I have a boyfriend. I have moved on with myself and I have grown as a person. I am still Zimick, my hair is still white and I still go by the same stuff. But you have changed, and I'm so so so sorry I wasn't there to help you grow. But I know if I stayed you would've been effected by me, and I would've been effected by you. What we had wasn't healthy, maybe it was me. Maybe it was you. We were just kidd y'know? Stupid, dumb, dramatic kids. And now that I hear that you're suffering I only want to tell you that change can be made. It may hurt, but letting go is the best thing you can do. Get off of animemaker, do something with yourself.

You have no idea how madly in love I was with you. You felt like the thing I had been missing ever since I was groomed. You felt like the only man in the world who respected me for what I was, and not for my body.

ALL OF THIS IS FROM ZIMICK BOTTOM TO TOP

And I have a bad feeling my habits rubbed off on you. And I'm sorry, I really am. But did you have to SHOW ME PICTURES OF YOURSELF DOING IT?! Anyways, I loved you. I loved you in a way song birds love one another. You felt real to me, like a real friend. Even more than that, but im just delusional. When we drew together it felt like magic, and I felt sparks fly with you. But after a while that magic faded and I felt like I was making you uncomfortable. And when I finally started to drift away, you came back sadder and more desperate. I went back and forth with you for weeks. And when you pulled that suicide stunt? Was that even real? Or were you just looking for my attention. Because I cried so hard for you I almost killed myself to meet you in the afterlife Roman. I almost pulled a Romeo and Juliet for you. Do you even know how much it takes for me to get like that?

When I met you, you made me feel things I never thought I would. You saw me as a man at a time I wanted to be one. (PS: I'm not a man anymore.) You respected me and understood me and I felt so very very special. So thank you Roman, for making me feel special. Here's where shit hits the fan, you also made me feel like I was responsible for you. Like I was your babysitter or something like that. I was in a state of my life where I thought self harm was the answer.

Dear Roman, this is Zimick. Yeah that same trans person who was crazy for you a couple summers back. I've been told from a great friend of mine that you've been in a dark place. And I'm really sorry to hear that. You don't deserve to suffer like that, and in all honesty nobody does. But in all fairness, I'm still very very VERY mad at you. But don't beat yourself up about it. I'm a person who holds grudges like it's a professional sport. So take my feelings with a grain of salt honey. But sense I'm sending you this "note" and I probably won't get a response. Let's get a few things out of the way before I end up saying shit I don't want to.

I’ll have to cut it up

This is a letter from Zimick

Please dude I wanna be there for you

Dude know that im here for you man, do you not trust me? Or do you not trust yourself?

I’m here for you dude

I don’t hate you man I’m here for you

If you ever come back tell me what happened man.. I miss you dude..

I’m built different

Lol

I wanna say it gets hot in the west huh, and did your dad saying anything now?

You’ve talked to him yet?

Of the words of John marston: YOUR F* GAY, AS IN HOMOSEXUAL!