I'm sorry to hear that. Nothing yet.

I'm so sorry to hear that. May I ask what happened?

That's good to hear.

How goes things with Atlas?

I'm not sure, I would have to check with her first and see if she wants to meet you.

I don't know. Probably not a whole lot longer. But I do have a girlfriend now! She's amazing, and I love her so much. She likes animals, she's a furry, she's super sweet, she loves transformers and I'm talking to her about gundam, I got her her very first model kit and she loved it, and my parents love her! She's so amazing and it was so nice to be able to hold her hand and hug her. I plan on giving her a little kiss next time we hang out.

I know. And I'm sorry.

I know. But things are different now. It's hard. Like I said, I still cate about you. I just don't know what I want. I don't know if this is really right for me. I need experience. Real experience. Not just something online.

You are, I feel that I'm not enough. I never have been to anyone else. Things are hard right now. That's all. You won't lose me, I'll always want to be friends with you

I love this, it's so nice to find other furries and their art!

I guess, but it feels like you're trying to guilt and manipulate me into being with you. I get it, my patents aren't the greatest, no parent ever is because they aren't perfect. But I still love them. They're family and they love me. I care about you, but if you're going to be that way, maybe we shouldn't get back together. I'm sorry.

I know. I'm sorry. I'm scared that I'm losing myself. I don't even know who I am or what I want to do with my life. Things are so hard. All I want is to be a girls boyfriend. And I want it to feel real. I want it to be real. In person. I need physical touch. I need to hug and kiss. It's so hard. I'm sorry.

Yeah lol. We'll see how it turns out just guess. You could always find people that might be interested in me if you wanted. Not that you have to, just an idea. I know that would probably be weird for you lol. Though that's probably not a good idea anyway because I want something in person for once. I confuse myself sometimes lmao

Probably here in a little while. I still have my senior year after all. I'll likely get a full time job afterwards and see what I'll do about college. Even you seen to have it way better than I do lol. You're getting toys and things to make you more comfortable with yourself and you already have a partner, meanwhile I'm out here struggling to survive lmao.

Oh really? What kinds of things? That's fair. It's definitely different. And I meant sonas lol, it corrected to songs.

Lol. Yeah, things have been alright. I really think you would like Dead Cells, it has references to Hollow Knight and Risk of Rain 2, among many other games, and its a really fun RougeLite. The sona is in its early stages, but when it's finished I'll post it if I can. I have a bunch more I need to put down and make into actual songs. How have you been?

Well I've been building a bunch as always. I recently started playing Dead Cells and its way too much fun. I haven't beat it yet but I've unlocked most of the areas. I agree. Therapy has helped because I've been more confident and outgoing, and I also haven't masturbated in over a month now. Also I altered my main sona to be a Cat Shark now, my irl furry friend is working on it. She drew a rough sketch pretty quick but I think it looks good. I would make a few tweaks, but nothing is ever perfect lol.

Maybe, I don't know. I'd have to wait and see where things go for the both of us. I want to try a real in person relationship, but it's hard when I can't even find anyone that would ever like me. I'm trying so hard to be better for myself with therapy and it's working, but for some reason I'm just never enough for anyone.

I don't know to be honest. Things are just so crazy. I did it because I want something that feels real. What I had with you was great, but I couldn't get that physical aspect that I needed. Being poly was weird and didn't really work. And then the diapers is a whole issue for me. I want to be able to look at you and see you for the woman you really are, but it's so hard sometimes. There are just so many complications. Along with the fact that no matter how hard I try and how much I better myself, it's still not enough to get a legitimate in person girlfriend. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't know what's so wrong with me to the point that I'm just never enough for anyone.

How's it going with Atlas?