No it’s not bad. I have the same problem, Dani. My great grandpa died and I was 5 years old and loved him very much. But for some reason I didn’t really seem to care. It’s probably bc I was 5 and I only knew him for 2 days...

I never had one, I'd just cry all night long

... the only time I cry is when I get an anxiety attack

It's normal, I'm still really sad that my favorite grandpa is in the hospital and is close to death, the only thing that kinda calmed me down a bit about it was hearing he was still alive.

No I barely cried when pearl died (from Steven universe)