It’s ok.
I know this takes time but I just been through a lot to the point I don’t pay attention to it anymore.
I will try my best too.

Zim, relax your mind and forget about if that's what you want. The only way we can get things out of out head is trying to forget it. I know it's hard, but you have to try. I've never seen you like this and I know you haven't either, or at least in most cases. But, you have us to talk to and you can explain what's on your mind

oh.. well, maybe try different ways to take your mind off of it? I'm not really sure what to suggest,,
I know you'll find someone who will love you for who you are, flaws and all. And you'll feel the same way about them. You're an amazing person, Frust. But sadly love doesn't come very easily. It may take a while to find the one but it will be worth it in the end. These things take time, y'know? You can't really rush something as delicate as love, or there can be consequences that result in both or more people in the relationship getting hurt. And I know it can be something that you can end up craving so much after losing, I've been there.
Just try to calm down and relax okay? ahh I don't really know what else to say I'm sorry-

Why do I hate yourself

Thanks, auto.
I’m tearing up bc of how much I want to be with someone,
I wouldn’t be this way if I were bc I would relate to others being “couply.”