What a time to live.

To my friend ‘joking’ about killing themselves.
To them drawing them hanging or jumping off a building. I don’t know if they’ve tried to before, but I have. And every time I see someone joking about I want to cry, yell at them or tell them it’s not funny, and to just shut down completely to the outside world. I wish I could tell this to my friends, but I’m afraid they’ll hate me.