NEGATIVITY

I just realized how hard it is to hide and tell my TRUE feelings...

I am feeling so heavy and right now I am crying, I want to and at the same time I don't... I want to tell my parents how I am but I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH!!!! I just don't feel like I have the urge to talk to them about the "escape to the bathroom to un bottle you're emotions" and the "I'm okay!" lie...

I just want to tell them how bad I feel, I feel like I don't want to feel anymore, like "l'd rather loose the feeling of sadness and pain and anger, than stay like this!"

I've been wondering what if someday, I just disappeared for 1 day... Would everything stay the same? I just don't want to feel fake emotions or be a ghost in a world full of cruelty and pain...

Look I just want to be happy for a day, I don't want life playing with my joy and feelings anymore...

I want to be seen without the lies I've been telling to them and myself... I wanna feel... Fine...

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